undisciplined white girl

started work as a part-time janitor for a month, until i start another job. i worked for the same company last summer too, but in a different building. this building is huge and i have to work a lot harder. at the last building i was wasting time til i was done, but i think this is going to be different.

this black woman trained me and another black woman whose my age. when i mopped the floor too quickly the woman training us called me a "lightweight" and said she would have to watch me, which she then told our supervisor. then her and the other trainee started talking about discipline, how they had been raised with parents who would hit them or "get the switch" when they wouldn't do a chore right or for various reasons. then they asked me about my "discipline" and were disappointed but not surprised to find out my mom never hit me. then they talked about different things, mostly related to working their fucking asses off and being poor. again, i couldn't say anything. i'm not going to lie and pretend like i've experienced half of the bullshit of poverty that they have.

at this builidng, unlike my last one, there is a monthly inspection. if the builiding looks good, everyone gets a little bonus, so there is more pressure to get your work done and done well here. i know it's my class and college education that makes me lazy at a job like cleaning bathrooms and feel like i don't have to work hard.